Linear Timing

I wonder if my therapist gets tired of my antics

my mom said I must be easy money

since Lucy gets paid one hundred and twenty dollars an hour to listen to me vent

and I wonder if there’s any truth to it

my mom said

she must not be that great 

if I’ve gone for ten years and I still got hate

in my heart, but I’m sure you’ve caught on by now

you can work hard on yourself 

and still not have it figured out

man my mom must be perfect

to not experience all this hurting

to drop casual comments that bruise the canvas of my healing

but not everyone will understand the hand that I’m dealing 

with, not even me

and it’s hard to believe 

that I’m making any progress

when the path to wholeness

is not measured in linear timing

-kayls