God has such a funny, sweet way of talking to me. Sometimes, I hear him call me homegirl, and sometimes I hear him say my beloved daughter. I wouldn't trade my relationship with the LORD for anything in this world but sometimes I laugh at Him.
2017 has been a year of the LORD speaking very boldly to me. Bold in ways that scare me, because they are so big and beyond me, they test my faith, they ask my heart where my alliance really lies. Faith in the LORD, or fear in my control?
Recently the LORD has been giving me visions. Visions that have come to pass, and visions that are still out there waiting...
I've never had visions before this year and as cool as it is to experience the LORD in that way, I find myself questioning and doubting. I find myself laughing, telling myself I am crazy, and blaming my insane imagination. But deep down I hear a voice saying, "Why are you laughing?"
Apparently God needed to make that voice a lot louder when today Zoey told me a story of a woman who also laughed.
Genesis 18:10: Then one of them said, “I will surely return to you about this time next year, and Sarah your wife will have a son.”
Now Sarah was listening at the entrance to the tent, which was behind him.11 Abraham and Sarah were already very old, and Sarah was past the age of childbearing. 12 So Sarah laughed to herself as she thought, “After I am worn out and my lord is old, will I now have this pleasure?”
13 Then the Lord said to Abraham, “Why did Sarah laugh and say, ‘Will I really have a child, now that I am old?’ 14 Is anything too hard for the Lord? I will return to you at the appointed time next year, and Sarah will have a son.”
15 Sarah was afraid, so she lied and said, “I did not laugh.”
But he said, “Yes, you did laugh.”
"Kaylie, why are you laughing? Is anything too hard for me?" No LORD, nothing is too hard for you.
Currently my spirit of laughter is unbelief, and fear.
God is challenging me to turn my spirit of laughter into a spirit of faith. Rejoicing in the LORD whose word is infallible. Pure laughter that is full of faith, and not full of fear.
Sarah lied and said she didn't laugh out of fear. I sometimes lie that I don't laugh, but I know I laugh in the fear of my control even if the laughter never leaves my mind. But what would it look like to have laughter in faith?
When these visions happen, embrace them, trust them, but give them back to the LORD. When things start to happen and come to pass and I find myself laughing, laugh in the spirit of faith. "Yes, there it is LORD, what you spoke happened, and I'm laughing as a result of my joy, faith, and thanksgiving."
So maybe laughing isn't all that bad, like I said, sometimes the LORD calls me homegirl, and I laugh at His whit. But why I'm laughing is the true question. Is it out of fear, or is it out of faith?
Why are you laughing?